Tuesday, June 13, 2006
"X is such a nice guy". "____says she thinks u r the most cannot suan ple kind of person". "____ for example tells me ur her ideal kinda guy for bullying... in fact ____ says u've got this adorable boy boy kinda thing going on"
One of the greatest problems X has is the way people perceive him. That he's the "nice guy", the "anything goes" kind of guy. the one you can depend on as a last resort. the one who won't mind doing this and that and whatever else... because he's such a NICE guy.
X used to think that being the nice guy was everything. that everyone would like him for it. that getting along with everyone was just enough to get by . E's 'vanilla theory' was right, X had to admit. considering how many of the traits he saw in himself.
"Some characterstics about the The Nice Guy:
1. Probably not the Adonises of the world, although by no means the Hunchbacks of Notre Dame either.
2. Highly sensitive to others' emotions
3. Highly patient, willing to listen at ends to others before expressing any opinions of his own."
- E's theory of Vanilla as an analogy of the "Nice Guy"
that got X wondering, "so was it really worth it to be such a nice guy all the time then?" considering how much he agreed with E about 'nice' being a very vague description about a person's good qualities. 'nice' was just... blah. it was the bare minimum that other qualities should have been built on, not just the only thing. being a steady, sensitive, patient kind of person wasn't a bad thing... but sometimes you need to be something more.
being nice took a lot out of him, X had to admit, and sometimes he felt people took him for granted, used him just because he was nice (of course people DID tell him that he was really appreiciated, but that wasn't all the time). but it was just the way he was. and he didn't know how to act any other way.
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